Emo Friday.

It's one of those nights again, when I feel emo, thinking about things which didn't happen, pondering over what are the possible reasons and at the end of the day, there is always no answers to them. it's just how I decide and then convince myself that it isone of the reasons.

If I could reverse the time, would I have reacted differently then? Would it be different now? So many questions, so many possibilities.

I don't know.

happy.

The day is almost ending and I'm supposed to be on my bed ready to sleep.
But since my laptop is on, I thought I should just drop by here to write a short post since it had been some time since my last entry. I wonder if anyone reads this, but oh wells, just thought of sharing my little life here although I guess no one really bothers about it. ha.

Finally, I bought a new laptop (that I can proudly say it belongs to me!!!) from the recent Comex 2014. Yes, had been sharing computers/laptops with my siblings since young, and only at this age do I get my own laptop. Am I alien? hahaha. So far pretty satisfied with this new gadget of mine with nice sleek design and the latest windows 8. And guess what! only cost $849 with lots of free gifts! Anyway the oldest version I recall using was the windows 97 I think! Yea... getting old.

And not to mention, I got a new camera from Comex 2014 too! Fujifilm X-A1, and I'm totally loving it. Although I'm not really good at taking photos, but had always wanted a cute/cool camera. So finally I decided to buy it. And yup, it's my first camera. =) Tried out the camera at Marina Barrage last Saturday with my dear too. On the down side, it's a little heavy after carrying it for some time. but still.. Love it!

August had been pretty much normal - work eat sleep. can't get any apt than that.

Oh! This year's birthday, I went to Sentosa Adventure Cove with my dear. It's a well-spent day and I really enjoyed it. Although there's no expensive dinner/gifts, and not to mention of course, no surprises as expected... It's just fun to be creating memories together. And I'm a little surprise that he bought the soft toy dolphin for me when I said I wanted it. It's just... we had kinda grown out of the age for soft toys... then again, I'm quite happy he bought it HAHAHA. still a child at heart~

Been browsing the previous few posts and realised all are written under not-so-good-mood. Finally today's post is about something joyous. haha. Thinking about it, usually unhappy things are harder to say them out, so typing on blogs or writing in diaries are easier, resulting in most of the posts/entries being kind of emo/low spirits posts. Don't you agree!

Well it's getting late and there's work tomorrow. Shall be ending the post here. Goodnight all.

1 more month to Korea trip... WHEE~

Quick updates~

It has been long since my last post.

Several things to update here.

1) Bali trip with colleagues! March 2014
First trip overseas with colleague! Generally the beach is nicer then bintan/batam, but the things to do there are similar to that of bintan and batam too. Unless you're looking for a chillax vacation, other destinations may be better!

2) korean lessons!
Decided to attend some korean language classes and learn abit of the language. Guess what! The teacher turned out to be my secondary school classmate's mum! How coincidental can things get! Anyway it was only a few lessons so I still can't really understand korean words haha. At least some new things though =)

3) my brother got married!!! 31.05.2014
The wedding was awesome! Since they are still waiting for their upcoming flat, dasao moved in and stay with us. The house seems to be rather crowded hahaha. You know, when everyone needs the toilet... Anyway sometimes I do wonder and imagine myself being the bride. But then, I'm not sure if I'm actually ready for it... Ok I'm thinking too much.

4) first family trip together!!! 12-16.07.2014
Yes, finally a family trip together. To chaozhou and shantou. It was technically a visiting trip (to visit my grandmother's sisters and family). I guess the experience of a family trip is not that bad for the first time. But well, kinda have some insights through this trip. Shall not mention much on it. Shhhh.

5) booked air tix and planning to go korea! Whee~
Kinda excited and looking forward to the trip. It has always been one of the places that I wanted to go. Something to count down to!

Alrighty! That's all for the updates~

I'm starting to feel unsure again. And I really hate that feeling. haiz.

我想要的

我想要的，只是你多一點的心思、多一點的用心和多一點的付出。
這樣簡單的要求，算過份吗？

大年初十

It's the tenth day of the first month of lunar horse year.
Apparently it doesn't seems that good for horse horoscope friends according to all those fortune tellers/forecast.
Anyhows, happy lunar new year everybody!!! 马上有福、马上发财！
This year I got 犯太岁, as such went to 拜拜 today before meeting the stats clique for CNY gathering =)
This year's gathering seems to be less 热闹 since lesser people showed up.. Hmm.
Nonetheless, I still enjoyed myself. I hope the rest did too =)
And finally I won some Money from mahjong hehe. Been on a losing streak every time it played cards =X

Tomorrow's Monday again!
Start of a new week.
Sometimes I wonder.
Been living day after day - wake up in the morning, go to work, back to home, sleep and the whole routine starts again.
Haven't really thought about my future, and even if I did think about it, seems like a big question mark that I can't find any answer to.
Perhaps I'm quite contented with my life now? What more can I ask for?
And I never liked the idea of "asking for more" for the fear of disappointment. Maybe that's why my life has been kinda non-exciting.
It's just like a river, constantly flowing and moving on.
There were instances where I would love to change, to try something different, but every time when there's a negative reaction to it, I get really disheartened and it's kinda highly possible that I will give up.
I know, it's bad. Really bad.

Anyways.... I'm thinking of buying a laptop/netbook. Should I?

It's late now. Till next time. Goodnight world.

Monday~

Yes it's a Monday~! but Monday is going to be over in less than hour whee~
This week will probably be zooming pass, since CNY is coming this Friday.
Somehow I realised, whenever CNY is here, I'll have pretty bad mood swings.
Perhaps it's the worry about no new clothes/shoes/bags, maybe?
(I haven't decide what I should wear to go visiting yet though)
Or perhaps it just so coincident that things just doesn't go the way I wanted it.
CNY seems to be getting meaningless as one ages.
The excitement that comes together with the long holiday seems to be reducing bit by bit as each year goes by.
Getting to wear new (pretty) clothes, eating CNY goodies, getting ang baos....
Ah well, why think so much.

Recently upgraded my Samsung S3 phone with the new software update, and my battery 莫名其妙 drops damn fast.
So today I happened to see a post on Facebook, I finally realised why...
it's the new software's fault!!!!!!
Seeing so many people with the same issue, I guess it's not my phone being faulty~

Work's been the usual recently.
Nothing much happened at work too. except that Dec.
Hope the coming year would be great!
And it's getting late too. Shall sleep before I can't get up tomorrow morning!

Here's a quote to end the entry(though there's no link to the above content, trying to be inspirational LOL):
渡人如渡己。 渡已，亦是渡人

Happy new year!!!

Here comes 2014!
Since the times we had been together, this is the first year you counted down to the new year with me <3 p="">Even though it was a simple stay home count down, it feels great to just have you by my side to end the year, and the first person to be with in the new year. Hope it'll be like what everyone else says for this time round, may our love be 一生一世(1314) ^.^

Well I guess I won't bore everyone reading this with my new year resolutions.
Haha, just want to wish all a happy new year.
May all your lives be filled with happiness, fun, and lots of love!
May everyone be healthy, stay strong, grow wiser, and stay cheerful as always.
May work be smooth sailing too!
May 2014 be greater, and better for 大家!

Once again, happy new year!

December with trust.

It's the season again!
December is here and I guess it's probably my second favourite month of the year because I get to receive gifts from the numerous gift exchanges.
Favourite month is my birthday month!
And not forgetting the year end bonus whee~

There was another issue bothering me in the midst of such festive mood.
How shall I put it...
It's about trust.
I vaguely remember I did mention about me being hard to trust people, or something along that line.
Trust has to be earned, and that's for sure.
And once you betray my trust towards you, you can almost forget about getting that same level of trust back.
Sounds too serious? To me it's not.
Frankly speaking, the whole issue doesn't really concern me.
But to be lying, till the point where I no longer be able to trust whatever you are saying reflects how bad you are as a person.
It's ridiculous to be testing everyone's tolerance, and I think it's really childish to be making use of your relationship to do that.
It'll only show how trustworthy you are, and I'm quite certain most people will score you low on this. And those who still thinks you're trustworthy, they're probably not any better.
Well, shan't let this ruin my joyous December.

Goodnight world.

星期五

是我太敏感了吗?

=)

It has been awhile since my last post.
Had always been busy with work, or rather there hasn't been much to blog about hence didn't blog.
Then you must be wondering why I came to blog today...

Yes, my brother got engaged!!!
He proposed yesterday at Sentosa Cove and its his girlfriend's birthday too!
Ok officially she's my future sis-in-law since yesterday!
It's the kind of proposal that you see in dramas...
Dinner at a restaurant, letters balloons forming "MARRY ME" appeared, then the boy appear with a bunch of red hearts balloons, holding the diamond ring, walked up to the girl, kneel down and pop the magical question. Meanwhile, hidden cameras filming the whole process, family and friends appeared to congratulate.
I'm quite sure any girl would be touched with these. After all, women love romantic moments.
And more often than not, it's the effort, the courage, and the sweetness of the guy that touches.
=)
Congrats bro!

Work has been fine and being busy makes time pass faster.
Although sometimes it's really quite sian, but no choice...
The same old sentence: life goes on!

Sad.

I know I shouldn't be feeling so.
I know it's somewhat unreasonable to request, but actually I don't think it's unreasonable.
But somehow I feel sad that it didn't turn out the way I wished.
Maybe you have pampered me, so much that I didn't know I was starting to get greedy.
Or maybe you're tired, tired of entertaining me.
I have no idea, I can only guess how you feel.
I don't know, don't know what I'm living for.
People say one should live life for yourself.
But I don't know how.
Suddenly my heart sank, literally.
Deep inside I was hoping you would be there.
Don't bear to see you so tired, yet blamed you for it.
Don't bear to see you disappointed, yet I can't get over it.
Why am I always so contradicting.
Hope I can get some enlightenment, somewhere, somehow.

Goodnight.

2 less (wisdom) tooth~

Had my left side wisdom tooth extraction on tues!
I had a total of 4 wisdom tooth, but only took out 2...
So 1 was the normal extraction, the other was an impacted tooth which requires surgery.
Well the word surgery was rather nerve-wrecking..
Yea I know many people go for wisdom tooth surgery everyday.. but the thought of it just scares me, especially when there are drilling of the tooth involved! Yes drilling of your tooth, sounds scary right!!!!

Anyway on that day, had to go NDC alone because nobody's free to accompany me.
I'm going surgery and nobody to accompany me!!!!!
Ok, though it was only a small one. BUT STILL... first time ma.. >.<
But actually I admit I was overly worried about this whole thing after I went for it la.. BUT STILL..the feeling of uncertainty... haiz..
But then again, was comforting myself before going in to that room, that after I'm done, my bf's waiting for me outside. Well, that helped. At least I know I'm not alone, and someone's there for me when I needed it.
So yep my name was called, and the surgeon in charge of my surgery explained to me the risk involved and made me sign on the paper saying that we have discussed the risks and i accepted it. They were pretty cautious as I was asked to confirm my name and IC for quite a number of times and to make sure I know why I was there.
So then I was instructed to go into this spacious room with the dental chair in the middle. (I wondered why the room has to be so big and spacious.. maybe so that patients would feel more comfortable?)
As I sat there, I was given the anethesia (local), and then the dental assistant cleaned my mouth area before covering me with some sort of green blanket (?) and wrapped my head and covered my eyes!
Nervousness increased!
But luckily the surgeon was quite encouraging and was constantly telling me what's coming into my mouth, which I find quite reassuring, and it wasnt painful when she was doing it..
But when she said that i'll be hearing cracking sounds, I was quite scared that instead of the tooth that's cracking, I was more worried about my jaw bone, because the pressure was quite high when she tried to crack my impacted tooth.
And the smell when she was doing the drilling, somehow it smelled quite fishy? and like metal smell... I thought it smell abit like those construction... hmm..
Then the extraction of the top wisdom tooth was an extremely fast one. One moment she said she's moving on to the top tooth, and the next, she said she's done!
Anyway, was quite glad that I wasn't bleeding profusely after the 'surgery'. And so, took train home (with my bf of course..was so glad to see him!) instead of cabbing!

As I had my extraction about 4pm i think (waited very long outside the room), didn't had anything else except milk that night..
The next day, I didn't eat anything, only drank milk, and orange juice and milk for the whole day..
Then the following day, I started eating beancurd, bread with milo, and dinner was rice (due to my mum constant nagging that I should eat something that's filling at least)!!! My intestines were also protesting my liquid diet 'cus they were making noises the whole morning! So I succumbed to hunger and ate the rice for dinner. I had been eating solid food already.. though it was at a slower speed and worried that anything would get stuck at the hole.
So that pretty sums up my wisdom tooth extraction.
5 days of MC and i'll probably get serious monday blues when i go back office on monday >.<
It's so nice to 睡到自然醒！
And have to go back for root canal treatment another day =( hope the root canal will be ok too..
Oh I wanted to take a photo of my extracted tooth, but then it was quite weird, and doesn't look good in whichever angle I tried, so in the end I threw it away without taking any pictures of  it ha.. so there isn't any photos to show!

Ok getting late...
Shall stop here today..
Goodnight!

sunday!

Yea, Sunday's ending real soon.
Monday's coming!!

Alrighties, been quite a while since i'm here.
Work's been fine =)

There isn't much things i can write here already.
Probably that's why lesser people are blogging nowadays. Ha.

Looking forward to more trips hehe.
yea, the only constraint is, of course, $$$$$!

Oh wells, not feeling inspirational today.
Back when i do!

Bye~

february~

It's february already.
Today's my sis's birthday, not sure if she knows this, but still, happy birthday sis! Hope you've enjoyed your day!
Yup and CNY is coming.

This year for my CNY new clothings, bought them in Bangkok!
Well, I didnt particularly shop for CNY clothes and those that I've bought are random pieces which I hope I'll have a chance to wear it for work! =P
Yup, went BKK from 19th Jan till 22nd Jan.
Sis drove me to the airport, and met up with the girls there.
First time to bkk, and well, other than shopping, we didnt really do much stuff there lol.
So it's considered like a shopping trip~!
Well, at least I did satisfy my buying desires a little, just a little sad that I didnt buy more.
But then again, it was more of like I'm buying for the sake of buying, 'cus probably I won't need it, but since I'm there already so might as well just buy!
Our motto of the trip was  "不用想，just 买!" LOL.
Didnt really get to really try their local food though.
Firstly, street foods are everywhere but due to the fear of getting stomachaces, we didnt dare to try it. 2ndly, we dont really know any authentic thai restaurants there anyway. So, we chose the safe options of eating at places where we find it's safe and looks proper~!
Went for the half day tour as well! Bai bai to ensure that the trip is smooth and then off to more shoppings!
Yup, and you will realise that everything is overpriced here~

Well, Jan was gone in a blink of the eye, and I guess feb will too, since it's a short month.
And, for a moment I have no idea what to write about already.
Actually, there's nothing much to write about.
In that case I shall stop here. HA. I'm like talking rubbish.
OH WELLS.

"It doesn't matter where you're travelling to, but who you travel with."

Goodnight all. Sweet dreams =)

it's 2013!

Yup, first day of 2013.
It's coming to an end.... 'cus it's 10 plus pm already.
Work tomorrow >.<

Been slacking around the house on the 1st day of the year.
Was rather lazy to go out, and someone wasn't free too.
Anyways, I finally opened the ipad2 that I won in a lucky draw for some labout market survey.
It was rather unexpected! ok who would expect to win in such lucky draws lol.
Been contemplating if I should sell or use it for my own, and after much considerations (1 plus week after getting the prize), decided to open it!
Haha, it could well be the best gift in the year 2012!! =)

Didn't went out to countdown again this year, as usual was watching the live telecast of countdown event on tv.
So boring hor.
Oh wells, maybe I'll have better plans for next year!
So anyway, since I had stayed home today, there isn't much to update so...
BYE~!

Happy new year again =D

Last day of 2012.

Yep, we've come to the last day of 2012.
So much for saying 2012 is the end of the world, but yeah, life still goes on.
Looking back at the year... it's perhaps one of the periods where there is a change in life phase.

Last semester in NUS during the 1Q of the year was rather slack.
Perhaps it could be attributed to the fact that I have lost the momentum to study, perhaps a little sick of studying (well, it's 15 years of school life if we start counting from primary school).
Then after exams was the much anticipated graduation trip to Taiwan!
Yup, it's my first free-and-easy trip overseas with friends.
Definitely enjoyable, and planning more trips in time to come!

Then the search for jobs began.
I wouldn't say it was with a lot of obstacles before I came to my current one, but still, there were moments of despair and helplessness.
Imagine sending in tenths of applications, but yet none replied.
Especially when I'm not particularly good at selling myself during interviews, it was something that I always wanted to avoid.
In any case, I'm thankful for being able to land myself in a job still.

And then working life starts.
Now I'm wondering how will I survive to work for the rest of my life till retirement.
It seems too far fetched for me to think about it now.
Yea, so I guess it's still early for me, but I should be reminded of my future and what I really want.

Went legoland and Bintan this month too. =)

SO that pretty sums up my whole 2012.
Wasnt particularly looking forward to 2013, but still, hope all is well for the new year!
Wish everyone all the best and a happy new year! =)

12.12.12

It's 12.12.12 today!
Wanted to came in to blog at 12:12pm but since it's my lunch time... oh well!
HAHA.
Need another 100 years to get this date!

Anyway, had a busy and good weekend last week.

08.12.12 - Legoland!

Woke up early to reach Singapore Flyer to catch the coach to Legoland.
But we still missed our bus!!!
Luckily there were several buses with other timings, so we still managed to reach our destination!
There were rather little rides for those who love thrilling ones, but there were quite a few that are really kids friendly.
So it's a good place for families.
However, should go on a weekday, if possible, because it's really crowded for weekends.
We went on a saturday, and spent most of our time queuing for the rides.
And of course the food there, is a little too expensive but probably still cheaper than other amusement parks.
Then there's the souvenir shop - good for lego fans to buy more of the collections!
And we went back after having dinner at the nearby mall just outside Legoland.
My dear came to pick me up at the flyer to send me home =) so sweet~
(But somehow I took longer to reach home =P)

09.12.12/10.12.12 - Bintan with <3 p="p">Woke up early again to catch the ferry at Tanah Merah Ferry Terminal to Bintan!
We were supposed to reach the terminal at 9:40am but was a little late =P
But still managed to be in time to get on the ferry 'cus it leaves at 11:10am!
Reached Bintan's terminal and then took the land transfer provided by the resort to our resort.
Well in general the experience there was good.
The staffs were friendly, the room was generally good (since we're only staying 1 night so nothing much to pick on) and the environment was generally relaxing.
They had this 'Mini Zoo' within the resort area so for both days there, we fed the deers! 

They eat like they have been starving for days! LOL.
And the beach!

First day was more cloudy...

Second day was really sunny!

Personally I feel the beach is better than the Batam one.
Cleaner, and the waters are clearer too!
And we discovered many many hermit crabs!!
They're so cute lah! I was totally fascinated by them HAHA ok call me mountain turtle.

 

SEE! Cute right!!!

One thing holding me back from going back again was probably the fact that their activities and food were rather over priced.
But since we were there to relax, so i guess we shouldnt be too particular about the prices ba!
But now, have to think twice before going haha.
Go when you feel abit richer, if not go Batam!
And then it's time to leave for Singapore!
Time really flies when you're enjoying yourself!

"I want to travel around the world with you, my love."

fragility of life.

See how fragile our lives are;
how accidents can disable us;
how illnesses and diseases can torture us;
how natural disasters can take away lives.
Treasure your own life.

Rainy day, Lazy day

Been raining almost everyday this month, and it really gets cold!
Well, been busy everyday going to work, then ocassionally going out after work.
Wasn't really physically tired, but mentally.
Nothing much actually. ha.
Hmm, maybe looking forward to december! Many many holidays!
ok not alot but still something to look forward too. =)

Ok i have nothing much to say.
BYE for now hehe.

=(

why am i home on a holiday?

boring.