BAD MOOD.

BAD MOOD.
ARGH.
I NEED A PLACE TO SCREAM.

a room to myself

sis went to korea last night.
went to the airport to send her off, together with mum, dad and weikai.
kind of envious of her that she can go travel.
haha but then again, i had my turn, and will have my turn too.
oh well i just have to wait i guess.
but i'm scared.
with no job = no savings = no grad trip.
that'll be so sad lah!
hais.

that aside, now i have one whole week with the room to myself.
feels kind of weird actually, because since young, been sharing a room with my sis.
ok i rmb there was a period when i was sleeping with my mum.
haha. anyway didnt really slept in a room by myself alone.
ok sounds like i'm missing my sis. HAHA.
anyway still feels good to have a room to myself la.

ok basically until now i've been slacking at home or going out.
no work done. plus my pay, i can only collect on next tues just because i didnt contact the boss ytd, which is supposedly my payday.
i was actually waiting for him to contact me and inform me where to meet him and stuff but he didnt.
oh well. kind of dislike the environment there. =P that was part of the reason for rejecting the admin job that he offered.

just finished watching '49 days', a korean drama.
not bad, kind of touching. haha.

anyway my face skin seems to be getter bad. HAIz.
what to do?????
eat more fruits, drink more water, sleep early!
ha been sleeping alot though, at the wrong timings. =X

oh well, i need work to do! if not i won't feel like working anymore!
come on my dear phone, ring!

bored.

it's been awhile.
and just the previous post i mentioned that there's a new pet in the house.
today, it died.
ok i'm not sure of the exact timing that it died, but when i tried to disturb it, it doesnt move!
not even a single inch. so my mum and i concluded that it's dead, hence threw it down the bin!
poor terrapin.
it's been quite some time since our house had a pet.
the most recent one was perhaps 'luo han yu' during the luo han yu craze.
cant remember exactly when was it.
anyway, perhaps it's the animals' unlucky life to be adopted by us.
oh well, life and death are part of our lives right?

ok i'm still jobless.
rotting at home.
dont really want to go out because i'll have to spend money if i'm out of the house.
and i havent got my pay from the uob side.
been sending resumes out these 2 days.
but my phone doesnt seem to be ringing.
i have no idea what i can do at home except watching tv/drama/sleep/eat/bathe.
and i hate to work because of money. not because i liked that job.
perhaps i'm too used to living day by day.
perhaps i'm just pure lazy.
i cant seem to find anything good about myself.
HAIZ.
i need to get some work before i start thinking too much.

"Expect too much and you'll bound to feel disappointed.
Be contented with what you have."
That's what i've been telling myself all the time, but i cant really control my heart.

back to jobless.

it's been a whole week since i've worked.
i have no idea how i had managed to do that.
standing for so many hours, my legs deserve some good rest.
ytd was supposedly my last day...
but the boss asked me to work for this coming weekend.
do i have to choice to say no?
since he said that he has already planned everything and i cant just quit like that.
then he shouldnt have said ok when i told him i'll only work till ytd.
make me happy for nothing.
ok i'm not actually against anyone.
just that i cant change my personality to suit that job.
maybe not that i cant, probably i didnt want to.
whatever it is, hope this coming weekend is really my last 2 days as their agent.

now that i'm jobless again, have to start looking for other jobs.
dont really want to work actually.
but no choice have to.
because i need to save up some money!!!
everything is about money. zzz

anyway, mum & dad bought a terrapin back when they brought the kid mum's babysit out.
so now, our house got a new pet.
hahahaha.

anyway time to go.
till next time! =)

i'm tired.. from smiling.

yup. started work just yesterday.
standing for 10 hours (including the travelling time) is no joke.
seriously, my last job as temp cashier at john little expo sale also not that tiring compared to this one.
and to make things worse, not even a single deal closed today.
sad. abit demoralized.
and i start thinking if i should really continue this job.
well, 2 months, i believe, will pass rather quickly.
perhaps i'm really not suited to this kind of job.
i know i have to get used to this fast.
but i dont know if i can do it.
everybody made this job sound so simple.
yes, simple if you have a gift to speak well, to have the ability to convinced/persuade people.
i'm terrible at that, trust me.
i have the urge to quit.
i kind of regret to agree trying this job.
should have just find those admin jobs to do.
oh well, hope i can do better....
hope my luck will improve and improve and improve...

i'm tired, from smiling, that i dont want to move the tip of my lips up...

till next time........

bbbbbbbooooooorrrrreeeeeeddddddddddd

it's one week after my last paper.
been out everyday.
today's the first day i stayed home the whole day since the paper.
=X

Probably going to be a uob credit card promoter.
for the next 2 and a half months.
now studying and memorizing all the benefits/priviledges that comes with each different card.
got a test tmr! zzz.
cant imagine what's ahead of me.
oh well, who ask me to be poor.
so people, if you or your friends want to sign up for credit cards, come find me ok!

that's all for today.
everyday is an ordinary day.

summer holidays...

...are here again!
happy.
that exams are over and holidays are here.
ytd was my last paper, my last official day as a year 2. omg.
sad.
that i have to find job so i can save $$.
excited.
that my birthday is coming! haha 3 more months actually, but hey! it's my 21st! naturally will feel excited ma.
scared.
that i dont spend my holidays well.
that i cant do my job well.

and did i mention.
my iphone died.
about a month ago.
so today went to checkout the repair shop, but the person said it's hopeless.
now i really dont know what to do with my phone.
i can still use it as a itouch. >.< but cant make calls, or send/receive msges.
oh well. see how ba.

gonna go out alot i think.
hahahaha.

ok that's all for today! hehe.
oh btw today is the royal wedding of prince william and kate middleton.
and GE is coming! but i cant vote.