thoughts and feelings.

Well, finally, I'm starting work on Monday, 1st Oct 2012, after such long wait.
Officially going to enter into the workforce, and definitely mixed feelings much.
Excited, uncertainty, fears, anxiousness, you name it!
After graduation, the job search process wasn't as easy as I thought it would be, and the fact that I feel that there's this imaginary race between friends on who will get a job first made it worse.
Definitely, at that point of time, I believed I wouldn't be the last one to. But turned out I am.
Anyway, now that everything is back on track, I think I need to get used to the new phase of life that I'll soon be entering.

I think I did mentioned that at such hours I have most thoughts about things. Here I go again.
And I believe I have to constantly remind myself how fortunate I am to not take things for granted.
Last Sunday, being home for almost the whole of last week, I couldn't bring myself to stay at home again, so I went to the library and picked up a book to read. As much as I couldn't totally apprehend and digest all the advice that the book suggested, there's particularly a quote in the book that I liked.

"We think of joy as something to attain, to aspire toward, something that someday will be ours, permanently. But there's no need to wait. There are joy moments in every day for each of us. We simply have to notice them, name them, and be in them. By doing this, we will bring a sense of balance to the day, and then, by extension, to our whole life."

Somehow, this was really meaningful when I was reading, because I had always thought that way, that we have to find joy. But what I didn't realise was there are joyous moments in life that we often overlooked due to our conscious efforts in seeking joy and happiness. I think this is what everyone of us have to learn to be a happier person.

Another take away from the book, is to remember to breathe. And take note, is deep breathing.
Breathing actually helps one to relax. Whenever you are angry, sad, nervous, anything, just stop and do deep breathing. Personally, it really calms me down. So there's no harm trying the next time you need some relaxing.

Actually the book is targetted at individuals who are too busy with their lives that they don't have time to themselves. But I still benefited even though I was too free that's why I read the book. Maybe I should read more often!

Alright I guess I should stop here today!
May everyone notice and enjoy the joyous moments they deserve! =)

wait, waiting, waited

Been waiting and waiting and waiting.
Besides waiting, I don't know what can I do.
HAI.

Been quite a while since the last update.
Yup as expected I'm still unemployed.
Been feeling useless, like seriously.
Been living day by day.
Everyday's kinda about the same.
Woke up, breakfast, read newspaper, lunch, play com, nap, help my mum cook, dinner, tv, play com, sleep. Of course checking emails every now and then.

Well, had a contract job interview last friday and was told I'm offered the job.
BUT I'm waiting for the PERM JOB to reply me!!!
WHY CANT THEY JUST HURRY UP!!!!
Anyway, the interview on friday was a rather relaxed one.
Met an Caucasian interviewer and he was really nice.
He did make me comfortable with the whole conversation and well, really friendly guy.
Well I didnt really have chances to interact with Caucasians and I think it really changes my perception about them that day.
The way they treat people and the gentlemen-ness. lol.
Ok maybe that was too biased, but well, it was a good impression I got.

Other than that, nothing much to update about.
And I really hate myself when I emo.
'Cus I know, I'm always finding faults when I emo. Like everything and anything, small issues, random comments people say.... like really everything just doesn't seem right.
Seriously, why hormones have such great effects on me.
On a lighter note, I NEED TO CHEER UP!

OHOHOH.
I got my pink ukulele from groupon on 5 Sept =D
Been trying to play and gosh, it's not easy!
Had to sacrifice my pretty long nails to play, and pressing the strings are really making my fingers hurt.
Luckily the strings are nylon and not metal.
But it still made my finger tips numb awhile when I played for the first few times.
It's better now! =)
More practice~!!!

OK everyone feeling down, I know the feeling sucks.
But life goes on.
SMILE, ok laugh if you can, EVERYDAY =D
Goodnight~!

beautiful song.

Chanced upon a lovely song on youtube just now.
This is the instrumental version.

And with lyrics version. Enjoy =)

Some say love, it is a river
that drowns the tender reed.
Some say love, it is a razor
that leaves your soul to bleed.
Some say love, it is a hunger,
an endless aching need.
I say love, it is a flower,
and you it's only seed.

It's the heart afraid of breaking
that never learns to dance.
It's the dream afraid of waking
that never takes the chance.
It's the one who won't be taken,
who cannot seem to give,
and the soul afraid of dyin'
that never learns to live.

When the night has been too lonely
and the road has been to long,
and you think that love is only
for the lucky and the strong,
just remember in the winter
far beneath the bitter snow
lies the seed that with the sun's love
in the spring becomes the rose.


Goodnight!