Sad.

I know I shouldn't be feeling so.
I know it's somewhat unreasonable to request, but actually I don't think it's unreasonable.
But somehow I feel sad that it didn't turn out the way I wished.
Maybe you have pampered me, so much that I didn't know I was starting to get greedy.
Or maybe you're tired, tired of entertaining me.
I have no idea, I can only guess how you feel.
I don't know, don't know what I'm living for.
People say one should live life for yourself.
But I don't know how.
Suddenly my heart sank, literally.
Deep inside I was hoping you would be there.
Don't bear to see you so tired, yet blamed you for it.
Don't bear to see you disappointed, yet I can't get over it.
Why am I always so contradicting.
Hope I can get some enlightenment, somewhere, somehow.

Goodnight.