regrets...

another page of my life is filled with regrets...

just couldnt stop my tears from falling...

HAPPY MUM'S DAY!

hey!
actually wanted to blog last night, but the service was down.
so... went to bed! haha.

friday match against AJC was well, not too bad i guess.
we won 2-1.
so, we wont be meeting HC in the semi-finals!
we're playing against VJC.
anyway, tml's the semi-final.
and we got to skip classes, only need to reach sch @ 1030am!
haha, but seriously, i'm missing alot of things. =(
but but, shall just focus on vb this week.
thurs's the final!

season's gonna end soon!

yesterday, after training, went to temple with the whole team.
while waiting for J and MQ, the rest were getting quite irritated, coz they're unhappy with J for arranging to take the tests that she missed ytd.
it ended that all of us had to wait for her so that we can go temple together.
and they were like waiting for her to apologize when she came, but she didnt.
so we're all quite pissed ba, i guess.
yup, reached there and prayed.
our whole team got amulets and also for the guys. =D
hope semi and finals go smoothly!
anyway, after we came out of the temple, J and MQ apologized for making us all to wait.
yup, apology accepted!
then, we bought our team watch @ bugis street! haha.
it was a not ex one though. 5 bucks! =D
well, went home after that, yup, with my legs aching like hell.
cause since the jorney to the temple and till the moment i reached home, i've been standing!
well, not counting the kneeling @ the temple lah. ha.

right, today's mother's day!
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY, MUMMY!
my sis say she wanna treat us all pizza, haha!
but i think we'll be sharing costs with her since the purpose is to celebrate mother's day.
and here's a stalk of carnation for U!
i'm hardworking-ly doing my gp essay presentation. =D
haha, well, it's sort of another last minute ba.
gonna present it someday next week. *nervous*
haha. right, only abit down till now...
need to type faster, ha!

well well, pictures time! not alot i think, but it's better than nothing right?

after AJ match...
team watch!

me & MQ!

while waiting for J & MQ...

some overdue and random pics... haha...

172 days to A levels!

i need ENERGY!

can u see illusion?

pls pls, anyone, just pass me some ENERGY!
i'm so not energetic...
even though i've been sleeping quite alot these 2 days, i'm still feeling so tired.

tml having a match against AJC.
hope everything just goes smoothly tml, and not like tt of ytd's match against MJC.
coach was seriously disappointed with us, because we're not serious enough.
perhaps complacency plays a big role in there.
it's the first time he's so angry, and he threw his water bottle on the floor.
training today was alright, but i just so not happy with myself.
haiz, shall not say too much.
been looking forward for the finals @ toa payoh sports hall.
and then, everything comes to an end.
i guess i wont be joining volleyball as a CCA already.
i'm just too tired.
perhaps an occassional play @ the beach would be great. but not indoor volleyball.
i just cant manage the pressure well.
yup, enough of it.

anyway, THANK YOU SIFAN!
my dear teammate + classmate.
THANKS for all those songs that u sent me, even the one that i've been desperately looking for.
=D
alright, not forgetting others who sent me too! haha.
yup and thank those who encouraged me. BIG SMILE!=D

oh oh, and today phy lecture, there's this guy from NASA, gave us a talk on space exploration etc.
it's so damn cool, with all those videos.
haha. rockets and what ever. ha.
it's so amazing that people could actually designed such high tech rockets and then live on the moon for days. lol.
and that's this part where he stressed that those astronauts recycled everything (water to be exact).
they recycle all the water, even from their own waste.
but ya, they clean it before drinking it la. haha.
well, the speaker tried to make it as interesting as possible, and i think it is.
haha, perhaps some ppl may not agree with me.
well at least i enjoyed it, and it's quite surprising since i dont really have the intention to join that field. who knows? maybe someday i will? haha.
anyway, that guy's Mr. Johnson if i didnt remember or heard wrongly.
he's an american, and yup, has that slang thingy.
overall, i still manage to catch what he's saying so not that bad.
haha! =D
and i can really see typical singaporean's behaviour after that lecture. haha.
cause he's bought posters, cards, stickers, brochures of NASA, which feature all the activities and whatever that's happening.
everyone was practically rushing to get all those things.
haha, i guess he's quite happy to see the overwhelming response. ha.
oh oh, and there's this part where he ask us do we know what does NASA stands for...
but no one does i guess, since no one answered.
then he say that personally he thinks it stands for "Not to Accept Stupidity as Answers"
i'm dun exactly remember why he say it stands for that... haha. well, never mind.
but for ur info, NASA stands for National Aeronautics and Space Administration.

well, i guess it's getting abit too lengthy.
shall stop here and i'm off to my comfortable bed! =D

175 days to A levels!

in the midst of doing hmk...

recently, i'm sort of addicted to english songs.
ha. been asking around for eng songs and searching for them.
yup yup, so if anyone have any nice recommendations, send to me!!!
or just tag the title and singer on my board then i go search.
but well, preferred the first way though! haha, call me lazy bum! ha!
and had been listening to FM 98.7!
sometimes those DJs just speak so fast that i cant even catch what they're saying!
slow down!
and when i notice those songs that i liked, i cant catch the singer's name.
and i cant search for them as a result! sad hor?
anyway, hope by listening to them can improve my eng langauge (that's what my gp tutor told me).

i'm seriously missing those days when i can really play.
i'm missing everyone, really.
but i'm restricted by my responsiblilty to study.
yup, A levels this year ya know!
this is serious stuff, no joke!

doin maths tutorial, and gotta study for maths test on tues.
no time to study tml cause i've got match, and then training at night!
i'm really tired of not performing up to my standards!
i sense the need to run faster!

one week shorter...

hey people!!!
another week just passed, like that!
it's another week closer to mid year exams, and A levels!!!

been trying to do my maths (binomial distribution) tutorial which is due on mon.
but it was quite unsuccessful, and inefficient.
stuck for quite long just for 1 question.
great, isnt it? haiz...

by the way, we've cleared the preliminary round! =D
the road is getting tougher, yea.
press on! just 5 more matches and we'll get the champion that we'd always wanted!
JIA YOU TEAM NYJC!

i realised i've been giving too many excuses.
whatever that happened, i'm always finding excuses.
i'm always buried in the pile of tutorials and work.
anyway, this week passed just as usual.
oh ya, chem test today.
i presume it was quite a simple test if i had been well prepared.
but yup, i was not.
so yes, once again, i sort of flunk it.
i promise to give my best for mid year, when i have nothing more to worry about except my studies.
but now, forgive me?

180 days to A levels!

p.s. i've been looking for songs by oliver james! anyone have? send me through email or msn also can! =D or or, 'half life' by duncan sheik or 'the way you look tonight' by frank sinatra.

waste of time?

yesterday,
was it just a total waste of time?

we went malaysia to have a friendly match with the team there.
supposed to be in johor, but changed venue when we reached.
i've actually went with anticipation that i'll get a chance to play.
at least a set and i'll be happier.
i'm so disappointed.
arent we suppose to gain some experience from the friendly?
honesty, i didnt.

i cant help but dislike her.
i dont want to, but i cant help it.

perhaps i just cant blame anyone.
perhaps i've been giving myself too many excuses.
i should stop, shouldnt i?


i liked that setter. =D

186 days to A levels!

leaking motivation...

yup yup, another 5 days just zoomed pass like that.

monday was yup, alright.

tues, had a match against RJC.
though we won, didnt really play well, for me i guess.
dun know what's wrong with me, suddenly i just forgot how to play.
sad. disappointed.
i dun like this.
anyway, it's our captain's bday the next day, so went Fish & Co.
pics next time, i haven receive them yet...
yup. ate till full. =D
and our beloved juniors paid half of our bills, cause they received $500 cause of the cca excellence award.
gave our captain a surprise. haha.
and we're so damn high.
cause there's quite a few bday ppl there.
den the Fish & Co. staff was like singing bday song and shouting their cheer to wish them happy bday.
we ended up joining them in the clapping and shouting. ha.
yup, went home and i was so full that i just dropped onto my bed and sleep.
loved my bed!

wed, yup, lessons as usual.
assembly was some environmental thingy, which was quite boring la frankly speaking.
but J was up there, presenting.
so yup, listened attentively. =D
den comes a few hours of waiting before training starts.
went to com lab with my teammates and... study of course.
training was alright.
coach was terribly sick, so he was not present.
so we trained ourselves.
but still ended at usual timing.
yup, went home and dozed off.
i guess i love my bed too much!

thurs, which was yesterday, lessons as usual.
and after that, took the physics SPA exam.
actually i'm supposed to take it today, but because of there's a match today, took it yesterday.
joined Mr. Mark Lim's class.
and he can be quite fierce leh.
anyway, that's beside the point.
i think i got 2 of the sources of errors mixed up.
hope it doesnt affect my results much.
pls!
ok. went home and forgot that i had to hand in my econs essay today.
so i slept without realising that my work is not done.
i seriously think i'm in love with my bed!
it's always so comfortable can!
=D

today, lessons till 10am only.
cause remember, we've got a match today, against SRJC.
trained abit, mostly the spikers...
and here comes the match!
but, we played terribly.
it's not like us, not what i see during our trainings.
though we won, we're not at all proud/happy.

coach talked to us after the match.
we've just increased the confidence level of other teams, after seeing us play so badly.
2 things:
1st, we're too not serious. totally agreed, as seen from the ist set.
2nd, we're not playing the game intelligently, as seen from the 2nd set.
he said this may perhaps be a good lesson for us all.
to know where our flaws lies, to see where our weaknesses are.
had team talk again...and yup, always repeating those same things.
no time to lose, if we really want that champion.

yup, i guess tml i'll have no time to study again.

shall be back again! =D

i'm so mentally tired.

188 days to A levels!