seriously out of mood...

phy spa went smoothly, cause i didnt forget anything!
well, i think i didnt anyway.
after that paper yesterday, wanted to study. but after lunch with C and YS...
we went to watch Indiana Jones.
yup. this!
Indiana Jones and the kindom of the crystal skull.

anyway, it's not a bad movie though.
wasnt really understanding what was happening in the beginning, but yup, managed to catch something towards the end.
it's so wrong timing to go watch movie since we've got chem spa today.
lol. anyway, we still went.

today chem spa went even smoother i think.
and my handwriting is super neat can, unlike the physics one.. terrible! haha.
ok, not that terrible la, still readable. =D
after that was econs lecture, taught us essay skills.
was quite a little boring one, except when the lecturer tried to make us laugh.
haha.
and we planned to go watch movie after that.
but... had to do CIP to get the hours needed for this year.
so LX, JY, YS, J and me went to collect the cans for donations, and we went amk to ask for donations.
IT'S TIRING!
what's more, people are trying to avoid u!
it's sort of automatic of them to shun u when u're holding the can.
nevertheless, it's kind of encouraging when those kind souls donate.
and those who smile back when u smile at them.
i enjoyed it anyway. =D
i think i'm the 2nd heaviest can... J's the heaviest! ha.
we're all saying that's because she's got the 'angelic' face. haha.
really, u can see all kinds of people.
those who donate voluntarily,
those who donate when u asked,
those who reject u with all kinds of excues when u asked, eg. "sry, i've got no coins with me",
those who totally treat u as transparent,
and those who walk another way when they saw u.
i guess next time i'll make a point to donate when others are asking.
it doesnt feel good to be rejected!
and the sentence which i've said the most today is, "hi, would u like to donate?"
ha, try saying that to every passer-by.
but but, we still managed to catch a movie! hehe.
2 movies in 2 days, not bad huh!
today watched this!

The Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian

great movie! go watch! =D
really, i liked it. haha.

i just want someone to listen to me.
i just want someone... to talk to.

156 days to A levels!

In the midst of studying for phy A level spa...

well, i'm in the midst of studying for my physics A levels spa tml.
yup, i know i shouldnt be here bloggin la.
but i've decided to try type out instead of writing out those same stuff on paper cause my fingers are starting to ache.
alright. shall keep this post short.
just wanted to type something, but realised i've got nothing to say.
haha.
well, best of luck to me tomorrow.
pray i dun forget anything for the spa report!
GOOD LUCK!

158 days to A levels!!!

we're so small...

It's not our choice, it's not theirs.
Earthquake in China, Sichuan.
12th May 2008.
Current death toll: 62,664

Is it our fault?
Did we make mother earth angry?
Is it our fault?
Is mother earth punishing us? for all our wrong deeds?

Thousands of lives, gone just like that.
Thousands of parents, lost their kids just like that.
Thousands of children, became orphans just like that.
Thousands of people, became homeless just like that.

It's so heart-breaking.

Just a couple of hours ago, i watched the charity show by mediacorp in the effort to raise funds for Sichuan's survivors. 让爱川流不息。
Pictures of those parents, children, rescuers, survivors, collasped buildings, debris......
There's no beautiful costumes, no dangerous acts, but with just words and songs.
All are heartfelt words, whether of those parents, or of those children.

Perhaps we wouldnt really understand how they felt, yet, everyone's trying to play a part in helping.
Let's all give them our condolences.
May those survivors live on courageously.
May those who lost their lives rest in peace.
May us all help in any way we could.

long day...

it's a long long day today!
early in the morning, reached sch @ normal time.
den after assembly was the GP paper!
paper 1, was alright i guess...
getting abit out of point towards the end.
paper 2 was ok too, well at least i understood what the passages are talking about.

after the paper, went for the briefing for the 'Organic Chemistry Cafe'.
it is actually an organic chem workshop organised by the teachers la.
yup, to improve our chem.
they just called tt for the fun of it. haha.
well well, it's gonna be a busy busy mugging month for all jc students!!!

ok, after the briefing, waited for Z and YS cause they go meet teachers.
went bishan subway and i ate cold cut trio again!
i'm always eating that!!!
ok, so since a paper is down, sort of shopped around la.
den i went home, bathe and went down to novena.
for what? dont tell u... haha.
ok la, study lor....
yup and so i'm so tired now!
but i think that studying session was effective. =D

alright, i need energy to continue running...

161 days to A levels!

fustrated!

When can my life be peaceful yet exciting at the same time?
i need someone to listen to me.

today wasnt a good day i supposed.
my brain is full of the chem spa report.
and i need to squeeze the phy spa report in.
plus, i wasted my precious afternoon doing nothing.
was supposed to stay back after sch to do something for mr tam.
yet, i wasted the time cause i got nothing to do.
i should have left earlier. instead of sitting there till 5pm before i leave.
it was supposed to be a team thingy, to make something for our teacher.
but i supposed they dont need my help, cause they practically ignored me.
ok fine, since my help is not needed, i left.
quite pissed just now. i mean is like they should have got something for me to do right.
ok never mind.
now i need to memorize the phy spa report cause tml got mock test.
plus, there's gp consultation tml and i have not done anything to consult him yet.
i need time!
and just now, i wanted to print materials from the school portal.
and the printer died on me.
kept asking me to check the print cartridge, but seriously i dont know what's wrong.
haiz.
time is moving fast can!
it's about 6 more months...
we should run faster than time.

163 days to A levels!

it's a saturday. yesterday.

The sun is setting and sky falling into darkness.

but would we be able to see the sunrise tomorrow?


it's a saturday yesterday, and i did practically nothing except the presentation for my gp essay.
this is way too slow!

watched the news just about 1 & a half hours ago.
the earthquake in china, sichuan, had taken lives of thousands.
yet, little can be done, since the situation have not stablise.
what is seen is the heartbreaking scences of parents waiting for their child to be found.
what is seen is the love of mothers for their kids, risking themselves to protect their loved.
what is seen is all those people trying to save lives.
what is seen is how fragile we can be, compared to our nature mother earth.
yet, we cant blame anyone, can we?

life's so unpredictable. really.

165 days to A levels!

officially ended!

yeah!
managed to come here to blog about these few days!
this season has OFFICIALLY ENDED!
it was a mixed feeling though....

monday it was the semi-finals.
all of us were confident that we'll win vjc and make it to the finals, against HCI.
it was so unexpected that our captain came with a stiff neck, and she couldnt play.
coach was optimistic, but he was probably worrying secretly.
cause i guess he doesnt want it the affect us.
it was a tough fight without our cap.
1st 2 sets we lost, and knowing that we couldnt lose the 3rd one, we fought back.
won the 3rd & 4th sets.
last set was the crucial one.
we were at the advantage, yet, vjc caught up with us.
and when the referee blew the last whistle, we cried.
it's over, we're not getting in to the finals.
our hearts filled with guilt and disappointment.
we've disappoint our coach, mr tam, principal, the school, and all the teachers who supported us.
all of whom expected us to be in toa payoh sports today, fighting for champion.
all of us broke down into tears.
it's so heartbreaking, and we felt the pain.
really, the feeling was indescribable.

next day, we thought we had training, as planned.
yet, coach told us to go home and rest.
he told us not to think too much since it's already happened.
life's like that isnt it?
full of surprises and many unexpecteds.
it's no point dwelling on it anymore.
some cried again, while coach was talking.
after that, we're supposed to go home, yet we doesnt seemed willing to barge.
we hugged each other and our vice-cap talked to all of us.
encouraging us to play well for the match on wed(ytd), which is the 3rd and 4th position one.
she said she'd saw a stronger team ytd during the match against vjc.
and uncontrollably, our tears start to fall.
we're crying again, and it's really really heartbreaking.
we believe that we shouldnt have lost, it shouldnt be like this.
yet, we could do nothing about it, besides feeling the pain.
真的很不甘心，不甘心我们就这样输了。

wed(ytd) was the match against AJC again, for the 3rd and 4th position.
it was perhaps a pretty easy match since our captain was able to play again.
yep, we won and got 3rd.
was supposed to go for lessons in the morning, but went for team breskfast instead.
A bought us an apple each, and we're all in a better mood.
training in the morning was weird, after that match.
it was not same feeling anymore.
after the match, our season was officially ended.
it was supposed to be today @ TPSH, but maybe lady luck was not on our side.

today, left class early than other to go toa payoh sports hall early.
girls' finals started soon after we reached.
HCI vs VJC.
we should be the ones there.
we should.
HC sort of trashed them, 3-0.
then, it was the guys match.
yup, they played well too. =)
against tjc, and yep, 3-0.
and we took lots and lots of photos today. shall find some time to upload them again.
after the prize presentation, was hanging around, taking team photos.
principal saw us tearing, cause we're damn damn sad we couldnt play in the finals.
he came to tell us life's like this, it's over and told us not to think too much.
it's really... no one can understand how we'd felt.
had our traditional team dinner after that.
yep, buffet again. =D
it's @ clake quay this year! Merchant court i think, ha.
a BIG THANK YOU TO MR TAM!
and coach bought his professional camera, and yup, another round of taking pics.

everything has just come to an end. vb.
it's hard to create a strong relationship, it's harder to maintain it, especially with each of us busying with our own stuff.
we've created a strong bond amongst the team, and yes, hope it doesnt fade with time.
it's just a short 1 & a half years with j2s and half a month with the juniors.
and it's amazing that we're so bonded.
there may be times when we're unhappy with each other, yet, we always manage to patch back, to stay together.
time flies, and yep, caught us all in surprise.
we'd laughed together.
we'd cried together.
we'd cheered together.
we'd dine together.
we'd been crazy together.
we'd played together.
though we may have lost the champion title, that we'd yearned for, all these made us who we are, to be so bonded.
it's sad to leave, but there's a need to move on.
but it's definitely going to be the most unforgettable team ever, yes, ever.

been receiving smses from my teammates, and it really touched me.
it touched me, and i feel like crying again.
no matter how sad we may feel about not winning the champion, i'm even more sad that it's the end.
it means we'll be seeing less of each other...
i'll miss them, miss our hugs...

the team had definitely coloured my jc life, and i'm very sure of it.

regrets...

another page of my life is filled with regrets...

just couldnt stop my tears from falling...

HAPPY MUM'S DAY!

hey!
actually wanted to blog last night, but the service was down.
so... went to bed! haha.

friday match against AJC was well, not too bad i guess.
we won 2-1.
so, we wont be meeting HC in the semi-finals!
we're playing against VJC.
anyway, tml's the semi-final.
and we got to skip classes, only need to reach sch @ 1030am!
haha, but seriously, i'm missing alot of things. =(
but but, shall just focus on vb this week.
thurs's the final!

season's gonna end soon!

yesterday, after training, went to temple with the whole team.
while waiting for J and MQ, the rest were getting quite irritated, coz they're unhappy with J for arranging to take the tests that she missed ytd.
it ended that all of us had to wait for her so that we can go temple together.
and they were like waiting for her to apologize when she came, but she didnt.
so we're all quite pissed ba, i guess.
yup, reached there and prayed.
our whole team got amulets and also for the guys. =D
hope semi and finals go smoothly!
anyway, after we came out of the temple, J and MQ apologized for making us all to wait.
yup, apology accepted!
then, we bought our team watch @ bugis street! haha.
it was a not ex one though. 5 bucks! =D
well, went home after that, yup, with my legs aching like hell.
cause since the jorney to the temple and till the moment i reached home, i've been standing!
well, not counting the kneeling @ the temple lah. ha.

right, today's mother's day!
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY, MUMMY!
my sis say she wanna treat us all pizza, haha!
but i think we'll be sharing costs with her since the purpose is to celebrate mother's day.
and here's a stalk of carnation for U!
i'm hardworking-ly doing my gp essay presentation. =D
haha, well, it's sort of another last minute ba.
gonna present it someday next week. *nervous*
haha. right, only abit down till now...
need to type faster, ha!

well well, pictures time! not alot i think, but it's better than nothing right?

after AJ match...
team watch!

me & MQ!

while waiting for J & MQ...

some overdue and random pics... haha...

172 days to A levels!

i need ENERGY!

can u see illusion?

pls pls, anyone, just pass me some ENERGY!
i'm so not energetic...
even though i've been sleeping quite alot these 2 days, i'm still feeling so tired.

tml having a match against AJC.
hope everything just goes smoothly tml, and not like tt of ytd's match against MJC.
coach was seriously disappointed with us, because we're not serious enough.
perhaps complacency plays a big role in there.
it's the first time he's so angry, and he threw his water bottle on the floor.
training today was alright, but i just so not happy with myself.
haiz, shall not say too much.
been looking forward for the finals @ toa payoh sports hall.
and then, everything comes to an end.
i guess i wont be joining volleyball as a CCA already.
i'm just too tired.
perhaps an occassional play @ the beach would be great. but not indoor volleyball.
i just cant manage the pressure well.
yup, enough of it.

anyway, THANK YOU SIFAN!
my dear teammate + classmate.
THANKS for all those songs that u sent me, even the one that i've been desperately looking for.
=D
alright, not forgetting others who sent me too! haha.
yup and thank those who encouraged me. BIG SMILE!=D

oh oh, and today phy lecture, there's this guy from NASA, gave us a talk on space exploration etc.
it's so damn cool, with all those videos.
haha. rockets and what ever. ha.
it's so amazing that people could actually designed such high tech rockets and then live on the moon for days. lol.
and that's this part where he stressed that those astronauts recycled everything (water to be exact).
they recycle all the water, even from their own waste.
but ya, they clean it before drinking it la. haha.
well, the speaker tried to make it as interesting as possible, and i think it is.
haha, perhaps some ppl may not agree with me.
well at least i enjoyed it, and it's quite surprising since i dont really have the intention to join that field. who knows? maybe someday i will? haha.
anyway, that guy's Mr. Johnson if i didnt remember or heard wrongly.
he's an american, and yup, has that slang thingy.
overall, i still manage to catch what he's saying so not that bad.
haha! =D
and i can really see typical singaporean's behaviour after that lecture. haha.
cause he's bought posters, cards, stickers, brochures of NASA, which feature all the activities and whatever that's happening.
everyone was practically rushing to get all those things.
haha, i guess he's quite happy to see the overwhelming response. ha.
oh oh, and there's this part where he ask us do we know what does NASA stands for...
but no one does i guess, since no one answered.
then he say that personally he thinks it stands for "Not to Accept Stupidity as Answers"
i'm dun exactly remember why he say it stands for that... haha. well, never mind.
but for ur info, NASA stands for National Aeronautics and Space Administration.

well, i guess it's getting abit too lengthy.
shall stop here and i'm off to my comfortable bed! =D

175 days to A levels!

in the midst of doing hmk...

recently, i'm sort of addicted to english songs.
ha. been asking around for eng songs and searching for them.
yup yup, so if anyone have any nice recommendations, send to me!!!
or just tag the title and singer on my board then i go search.
but well, preferred the first way though! haha, call me lazy bum! ha!
and had been listening to FM 98.7!
sometimes those DJs just speak so fast that i cant even catch what they're saying!
slow down!
and when i notice those songs that i liked, i cant catch the singer's name.
and i cant search for them as a result! sad hor?
anyway, hope by listening to them can improve my eng langauge (that's what my gp tutor told me).

i'm seriously missing those days when i can really play.
i'm missing everyone, really.
but i'm restricted by my responsiblilty to study.
yup, A levels this year ya know!
this is serious stuff, no joke!

doin maths tutorial, and gotta study for maths test on tues.
no time to study tml cause i've got match, and then training at night!
i'm really tired of not performing up to my standards!
i sense the need to run faster!

one week shorter...

hey people!!!
another week just passed, like that!
it's another week closer to mid year exams, and A levels!!!

been trying to do my maths (binomial distribution) tutorial which is due on mon.
but it was quite unsuccessful, and inefficient.
stuck for quite long just for 1 question.
great, isnt it? haiz...

by the way, we've cleared the preliminary round! =D
the road is getting tougher, yea.
press on! just 5 more matches and we'll get the champion that we'd always wanted!
JIA YOU TEAM NYJC!

i realised i've been giving too many excuses.
whatever that happened, i'm always finding excuses.
i'm always buried in the pile of tutorials and work.
anyway, this week passed just as usual.
oh ya, chem test today.
i presume it was quite a simple test if i had been well prepared.
but yup, i was not.
so yes, once again, i sort of flunk it.
i promise to give my best for mid year, when i have nothing more to worry about except my studies.
but now, forgive me?

180 days to A levels!

p.s. i've been looking for songs by oliver james! anyone have? send me through email or msn also can! =D or or, 'half life' by duncan sheik or 'the way you look tonight' by frank sinatra.