damn sad.

sort of brokedown today. couldnt control my tears.
we had a 'meeting' today before training. and i cried.
perhaps i'm too stressed up.
i've been trying to play well.
i've been asking why am i playing so badly.
i've been trying to stop myself from de-proving.
yet, nothing seemed to go my way.
S***s!

they say there's no such things say substitutes.
i dont believe.
come on. this is Singapore. Winner rules.
i'm not actually sad about not being able to play, well maybe part of the reason i confess.
but i'm much more disappointed with myself for not playing well.
who doesnt want to be the champion, who doesnt want to win?
tell me who?

well, on a lighter note, yesterday went 'guang ming shan' bai bai.
Qing Ming Jie.
after that went amk to shop.
1st stop was amk NTUC. mum and aunts looking at electric appliances.
the funny thing was they saw this mini 8" fan that they liked and actually wanted to buy.
we thot the price is $19.90, which is quite reasonable.
but when that cashier scan the barcode and said that it cost $42.00, they were damn shocked.
finally, we went back to see the price tag again and found that we've made a mistake.
in the end, only bought panties. lol.
den, mum and 'ah kim' had to go home.
so i went with my xiao yi, go walk walk around amk.
saw this pair of shoe that i liked. but didnt buy. cause i bu hao yi si ask xiao yi buy.
den we went to the newly renovated hawker centre to eat.
with our full stomach, went to 'this fashion' to look around.
my xiao yi bought 2 jackets. quite nice. =)
and she bought a shirt dress and a sort of shirt la for me.
THANKS XIAO YI! haha. (though she wont read this. haha)
anyway, went straight home after that. and my legs ache like hell.

shall stop here le...


Life is slowly revealing its cruelties, its evilness.